unsent letter to the ex annastarlet: Charles,
I have gone through much pain in my short life, but all seems to pale in comparison to this. I know it is pain like this that makes us human, that this is the pain that reminds us what its like to be happy. I thought i knew what it was like to miss you, but I had no idea.
On one hand, I hope I haunt you. I hope the words exchanged during late night conversations in your room echo in your ear and forever make you feel guilty for what you did to me. I hope the actions that took place in your room, where I sat, where you listened to my heart beat...I hope it stays with you and you look everywhere and find me in everything. The only reason I hope this is because this is how it is for me. Everything reminds me of you. I lay in my bed at school and remember how we laid in each other's arms. I sit at my computer and remember the long IM conversations. I look at my phone and remember how you eased my missing you for just a few moments with your stories of the day and listening intently to what I did that day. I recently received my phone bill...every single call to you. A bitter tangible reminder of us.
I know you are hurting. My friends have told me about conversations they have had with you. You are sad. You are not over me, not ready to let me go. You want to know how I am, how I look, but don't want to hear about other men. We are both hurting so much together, yet so seperately.
I have not heard your voice in 4 days. It seems like a lifetime has passed since I have heard it. Each minute is torture. Each minute that passes without you, I die a little more.
I don't know how any man can ever compare to you. Will any other man be in so much awe of me as you were? Will I ever have such chemistry and a love for life with another man?
Still, we are all baffled as to why you did this to me. The only thing we can come up with is that you were scared. You got scared of how serious things can become so quickly. I wish you weren't scared, but I can't do anything about it. I wish our love for each other was enough to keep us together until we are actually supposed to seperate. We both recognized that this might have been a mistake. I rest easily reading this quote over and over: "Don't worry about losing. If it is right, it happens - The Main thing is not to hurry. Nothing good gets away. -John Steinbeck"
We were perfect. It got away. But if it were a mistake, you have to realize it yourself. No matter how much I tell this to you, you will not realize it. I know you love me...and I always thought all you need is love. But I guess life is more complicated than that.
I miss you like hell.
Love,
Anna
Re:unsent letter to the ex 1973kendoll: Truly beautiful, Im sorry and good luck, I'll say a prayer for you Anna
James
Re:unsent letter to the ex gumby55555: That WAS a very nice letter, Anna... very well written! I know we all were there at one point in time and the good news is, we do leave that place eventually... eventually, as you well know, being the key word... keep on hanging in there! :)
