Thank You seth: This will be my last post here, so I wanted to say thank you to all of the "old school" types who have given me great support during the past year.
On April 3, it will have been a full year since the woman I loved left me in so much pain, but I've come a long way. Just two or three weeks ago I was a basket case too....
Tomorrow, I'm buying a car after going a year without (the car was in her name) and I'm finally doing my 2003 taxes (as well as my 2004 taxes) that I neglected when she left.
Today, another milestone: I sent her my final piece of hate mail! Tomorrow, a date with a girl. God, I have to admit I haven't had sex in nearly a year! Sonofab-tch!!!!!
I've just been running and lifting weights--guys in prison are gettting laid better than me.....
Anyway, things are looking up for me. I still pace my apartment ruminating and muttering to myself sometimes but I'm not going to cry about it. I'm getting better. What a difference a year makes. I wanted to throw myself in front of the train and that was the worst pain in my life, a thousand times worse than dislocating my shoulder or walking into someone's fist.....
Anyway, thanks everyone..... I'm hoping I get laid sometime in '05!!!!! ;D
Re:Thank You tupsie: Glad to know time makes adifferance. Hope to be moving on myself some day. I hear you about the train thing thought about somethings myself. Good luck!
Re:Thank You A002702: Seth,
come back and give us updates, we would like to know how the other side feels.
CD
Re:Thank You seth: Yes, I will come back for updates. Time does make a difference. I still have my ups and downs but I'm trying like HELL to stay away from getting drunk all of the time.
Any advice I can give you--please try your darndest to not drown your sorrows in a bottle (or two) of wine or a six pack or a bottle of Jack.
Get to the gym. I had to leave work a couple of times in July because I was having anxiety attacks and just smoking more than a pack a day.... I was up and down the elevator to smoke. It was 95 degrees that day in Washington, DC, and I went home because I just had to take a run to quell my anxiety attack.....
It was so hot. Some guy told me I must be crazy and I said, Yeah, I am.....
Good luck all. And get that exercise. It is truly the ONLY thing keeping me going now.
Re:Thank You Shanna: Good to hear you are doing better....please keep in touch.
Hugs
Shanna
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