Re:Oh the guilt!! teacherwriterguy: NOW you are sounding a little more like me, Willow78 - better watch it. I have the same frustration with having to clean up the mess made by my stbx walking out.
Feels like, if it was their choice, let them arrange all the details and get it done.
[quote"> I wonder sometimes why we have to suffer so much, life is so short, why can't we just have what we want to be happy always?[/quote">
Sorry, I have to sneak some humor in - the quote made me think of those Walgreen's commercials about the Land Called Perfect. The subtext being that, if life isn't perfect, at least Walgreens is as close to perfect as it can be.
I know, I know, random thought. Anyway, it's hardly an original thought, but the pain and the daily struggle with difficult times makes the happier times meaningful. If you never knew what it took to become happy, loved, safe, and comfortable, how could you appreciate it properly?
teacherwriterguy
Re:Oh the guilt!! Chey: Willow, what I meant by moving forward is not that you're moving forward to a SOMETHING...just that you're moving forward at all. For instance...getting up in the morning and making the effort to go to work....calling friends...calling family....NOT calling him...making sure you cook dinner for yourself...start going through the paperwork....taking the challenges one at a time rather than look at the big picture...all of those things are moving forward.
It's bloody hard to do, and believe me we ALL know..but sometimes just accepting that a little deed done in your day is reward enough to know that you are managing, is often "good enough for now" until you get sick of "good enough for now" and you move to looking towards a future....just take it one step/one day/one challenge at a time.
Chey
Re:Oh the guilt!! willow78: ;)I know what you meant by moving "forward" . I am sorry i sound so angry or bitter, but I am having a "I am sick of all this pain" day. It's hard to be positive when you are so low. Thanks for responding though!!!
Re:Oh the guilt!! Chey: Believe me honey I understand completely, and I wasn't in the least bit offended or thought you sounded anything other than frustrated. A state of mind I completely relate to.
Just take care of YOU ok
