Time to think......... atalose: With each and every day I find myself facing some old emotions and some new ones. Sometimes I reflect on the past, moments we shared, things we said to eachother, places we'd go, how we touched and looks and smiles that we shared.......Sometimes remembering makes me sad for he is no longer there to share with me all those special moments, for fear that I may not ever find someone who I will want to share moments like that with again- I'm not only afraid of being alone but afraid of finding/having someone new in my life that will diminish my views as to why and what made us so special (if that makes any sense), but when I think of him sharing his life, and all those special moments with someone other than me it makes me sad, where months ago I would of felt jealous, and angry. It makes me realize that I've come to accept that one day he will find/have someone in his life to build new memories with. Why if I can accept that one day he will move on and love someone else that I don't see myself doing the same and having the same? Is it because I feel what we had was more important to me and not so easy to let go off as it might be to him? Has it finally dawned on me after 11 mths. that if what we had together was so important and special and if he had loved me as I loved him that he would of never let me go to begin with? Have I finally accepted what was is no more and where that thought once hurt and left me feeling crushed now leaves me feeling sad and thoughtful mean something monumental though I haven't figured that part out yet? I am still healing, yes?, but I am closer to closing the door to my past and ready to face my future, right?
Re:Time to think......... lliw: hi i'm will
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Re:Time to think......... AmyMarie1972: Hi,
No it doesn't mean that it just means that it will take you a bit longer to get over than it will him that's all. Don't torture yourself with thoughts like this. They are causing you even more pain and making it harder for you to move on. Let them go. The time that you had together was just as special to him as it was to you. Believe that. More importantly concentrate on you and not thoughts of what he is doing or what he may do in the future.
You are strong, you are an intelligent beautiful person. Believe in that, concentrate on that. You gave someone the most special gift that anybody could ever give to another, that makes you a special person.
You will get through this, you will love again even if you feel that you can't right now.
Take care of yourself
Amy
