Feeling lost justme15: [color=Blue"> [/color"> We have been together for about 15 years. About a year maybe a little more than that. I starting feeling really different about myself. I had no idea what was wrong. During this time made my family crazy. They had no idea what was wrong anymore than I did. I pushed my childern and husband away so far thought I would never get them back. I accused my husband of very bad things and would jump done his butt for every little thing. I would sream at the kids for every little thing.
I would fight with him for no reason at all. Then I talked him in going away for a weekend. We started to fight on the way there. He told me that he didn't know if he was in love with me anymore. I was devasted by this news. We tried talking a bit and fighting also. The weekend was not that good.
I did not know what to do or go. I seemed to be getting worse on how I thought about myself and life in general. I finaaly went to the doctor cried the whole time in his office telling him everything. Come to find out I had depression and I let it go almost so far that he wanted to put me in the hospital. I started going to counseling and taking meds. Hard to beleive that I started feeling better with in weeks.
My childern noticed it long before I did. But by this time my husband was talking to other women. He needed someone to talk to because I wasn't talking about anything. I tried to tell him about what happen and why I was that way for so long. He didn't understand.
Know instead of helping me he wants to run. He wants a divorce and I don't. I have been there for him thru some very rough times. Things most women would not be able to handle.
He says he loves and cares about me. But he just handle it anymore.We had a great marriage before this all happened and I would like to put it back. But not sure how to do that. I had have read a lot and everyone says the same thing one person can make it happen. Should I keep going or give in and be back that person I never want to be again?
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Re:Feeling lost willow78: I also went through about the same thing, only I figured out later that I was co-dependent.I shut my husband and his 2 children out, without even realizing what i was doing, but this only went on for a few months, and then he began having an affair and then wanted a divorce. We still talk and we see each other at work and stuff, he tells me he loves me and really cares about me, and that he knows I still love him, I don't push myself on him, but I let him know that I love him very much. I don't mention the other woman, I only talk about stuff involving us. I have let him know what my problem was and he sees I am a better person and he is proud of who I have become, wheather or not he will come back to me, only time will tell, I can only be my best for him and pray alot. This is hard, I know, but they have to want us back on their own. Keep hopeing and praying,, and be a good person, he will see that. good luck :-\
