I Think I Get It Cizzler: I was re-reading my journal last night from a few months before he moved out, and I realized something. I thought asking him to go would make him try to "win" me back. I thought he would see the light, and realize what he could potentially lose in us. I really thought he had it in him to be the man he used to be. But now that we're apart it's becoming clearer by the day that he isn't going to change. I don't think he's capable of putting anyone ahead of himself. If nothing else comes of this at least he realizes that he has to make the effort to be part of our daughter's lilfe. For that it will all have been worth it.
Re:I Think I Get It soTiredOfHurting: Congrats on the discovery! I cringe at the thought of reading my journal entries from the beginning right now. In time I will be able too, but things are still too fresh for me to do that just yet. Again congrats, and good luck.
Re:I Think I Get It LostTeacher: it's amazing how at one moment can look back at time and think things were perfect, then we see something that really brings the truth to life.
i have read things that make me miss him tons, like old notes and cards. but then i read a journal from ages ago, and see that some of these problems we have had (like him avoiding talking about serious things, and ignoring me and hanging out with different people) has been happening for a very long time.
i might miss him, but maybe it really was for the best. i might not totally be able to admit that yet, but it's a feeling i know is around the corner.
congrats for being able to see the positive in a terrible situation.
