HELP tupsie: WHy cant I just give up . I'm so tired of sitting her and crying . What did I do that he doesnt care . Now I dont even think he cares about his son Hasnt seen him all week.This I think hurts more than anything.My eyes are so swollen . I sat in the car last night with it runnig for like an hour. All these images of my son kept flashing through my head. Him when he was born ,at 6 months how cut he is Putting him in his strller and walking on the board walk , first steps ect. Iwant the pain to end I'm done. What did I do to deserve this . I wish God would just take me.Why at least can he just make my heart stop loving him and caring. I wonder will he ever know what he lost in me?so many questions no answers. Help .
Re:HELP teacherwriterguy: Oh boy - a huge downturn :( I'm sorry for the hardest moments - they seem like they will never end.
The best advice I can give is just to let yourself feel everything you need to feel - vent it all out, pm those you trust, or even just let those memories hit you. It's absolutely rock-bottom awful at the time, but the only way to get it done is to keep letting anguish out when it needs to show itself.
You know we'll always listen on here.
Remember the Ojar motto - hang in there!
twg
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WHy cant I just give up . I'm so tired of sitting her and crying . What did I do that he doesnt care . Now I dont even think he cares about his son Hasnt seen him all week.This I think hurts more than anything.My eyes are so swollen . I sat in the car last night with it runnig for like an hour. All these images of my son kept flashing through my head. Him when he was born ,at 6 months how cut he is Putting him in his strller and walking on the board walk , first steps ect. Iwant the pain to end I'm done. What did I do to deserve this . I wish God would just take me.Why at least can he just make my heart stop loving him and caring. I wonder will he ever know what he lost in me?so many questions no answers. Help .
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Darling, darling, they why and what questions are tearing you apart. Ask them if you will, but realize that answers are not forthcoming :'(
People change, dear. As much as that hurts, ojar threads have shown you. Virtually overnight, and seemingly without effort to save on their side, they said, "Goodbye."
You didn't do anything to deserve this. No one, except the heartbreakers themselves, deserve this. Don't ask why :'(
Hang in there. Love your son now, for he needs you now more than ever. Hang with friends, mom?
I thought ojar motto is - this, too, shall pass :-\
