Pathetic moment!!! Once again 1973kendoll: Hi, hope eveyone is doing pretty well. I keep thinking about him, I was fine for a week or so, but I cant get him out of my head today. I actually went to his works website to see if there was any info about him!! HOW PATHETIC!! I'm feeling very moody, one minute Im missing him, another I am laughing about something else that happened during the course of the day, and the next Im thinking of him again will ill feelings but I still love him. I am beginning to think maybe I am not supposed to be in a relationship. Background info: gay all life, since age 6, my first relationship at 22 was with some assho!e loser that was in and out of jail, the next was some assho!e that just wanted a trophy boy, and when the love of his life came back after supposeably getting his shit together, I was history. My 3'rd was with this fool. He was beautiful inside, but was such a push over, mommy's boy, never had to do a hard days labor in his life, mixed with that, was a monsterous ass that wanted to indulge in "exterricular activities. He was a manipulatrive. I paid his fuck@ng way pratically all the time, until he got this other job!! What the f@ck am I doing wrong. I wanted to have a commitment ceromony with all these men. I WANTED TO MARRY THEM!! I want to be in a commited relationship. I am so over all this fuck!ng bullshi#. Anyways, hope all is well, just had to vent, I will prevail.
Re:Pathetic moment!!! Once again lemondrop: Hi Kendoll,
Sorry you are feeling so bad. You are not pathetic though. Not one bit. You love deeply and you give yourself completely when you're in a relationship. That's probably why it's so hard for you to let go. It's normal to want to find out info on your ex - and not pathetic at all. And you should be proud of yourself that you didn't call him! Good for you! That is one thing you can be really proud of. I hope you feel better soon.
Wishing good things come your way today,
Lemondrop
Re:Pathetic moment!!! Once again Cizzler: Hang in there!! You have one edge over all these so called men, you know what youwant. Don't settle for less than that.
Re:Pathetic moment!!! Once again amola: james...
you are not pathetic...you are human! just like the rest of us--we all have our good days and our bad! just hang on tight to the rollercoaster, and eventually you will be able to get off of it. lemondrop and cizzler are right...i'm proud of you for not calling him! keep going after what you want, and you will get it one of these days!!
hang in there!
:)
amola
Re:Pathetic moment!!! Once again 1973kendoll: Thank you all for your sweet, supportive advice. I really apprecite it. How are you all?
