BAD DAY JBH1970: For some reason I am having a day where it seems like I am moving backwards instead of forward. I can't say that over the last week I have had the "the good days" as before all of this happened, but I did seem to have a little more upbeat attitude. I received papers about a week ago, will be sending them back signed in a day or so. It really puzzles me why I seem to go 1 step forward and it lasts for a few days and then I seem to slip backwards again. Especially since I do not want her back. Having her back would not change the feelings I am experiencing. I also do not want to be ungreatful to God for the days that I seem to be upbeat. Does anyone relate?
Re: BAD DAY hurtingverymuch: Hey JBH!
Boy do I ever relate! I wake up never knowing what kind of day I'll have but leave myself open to whatever may come. When I do end up having an upbeat day I try to hang on to that feeling, hoping that the next day will be the same, and, of course it never is, I get disappointed and low. I got thru this past weekend when my s2bx moved out and figured if I got thru that I'd be okay. Well, it doesn't seem to work like that and yeah I have days where I feel like I've taken 100 steps back to the 1 step I may have taken forward. The one thing I have been doing is keeping an open mind when I go to bed telling myself that tomorrow is a new day and will be different and possibly better. Like you I am grateful for the "good" days that I have because I try to remember them and the feeling they bring to try and get me through the bad days. It also reminds me that "good" days are possible (Does all this make sense?).
I have gotten over one hurdle in this track that I'm on and know I have numerous others to over come, but I am trying to take each day as it comes, rather than worry myself about what the future holds and what's going to happen.\
The only question I have is why do the good days seem so short and the bad days seem so long?
Hope this helps you a little! Take care!
Hurt
Re: BAD DAY JimB: The roller coaster sucks, doesn't it?
If there's one thing that helped me during the time I was euphoric one day, despondent the next, it was using my positive energy on my good days in ways that would carry over to my bad ones. Making lists is a good thing - when you're feeling good, make lists of all the positive things you can think of, all the things you'd like to accomplish, etc. Then when you're feeling down, you can look at those lists for encouragement.
And be kind to yourself when you're down. It's only temporary, after all.
