I'm ready....... LonelyLady: Dear STBX,
You have had many opportunities to tell me about all the other woman in your bed. To think I believed all of your BS about your vows being sacred, and that you despise cheaters....Blah blah Blah. After all that I have done for you....you could have at the very least respected me enough to tell me the truth. For someone who claims to have loved me so much, you could have spared me a lot of years of pain. You have lied to me from the start of this relationship. This has been one POOR excuse for a marriage.
You have alienated me with your lack of concern for my feelings. You have neglected me with your utter lack of attention. You have physically and verbally abused me too many times to count. You have laid claims to change when you just substitute one addiction with another. You lied to me about sleeping with other woman, you blamed me for all your wrong doings. You made me feel like sex was your "marital right" and my "marital duty" without any sense of intimacy... and that it was all MY fault we were lacking intimacy. You made me feel so used!
You have put everything else ahead of me, you kept me from setting any career goals or from having any hint of a personal life, you have kept me from making new friends, you have accused me of multiple affairs, you have scorned me in front of the kids, you have humiliated me in public.....and I am so sure there's more to it than that short list.
Only Now, when faced with me leaving and filing for a divorce do you admit all this stuff, and after all these years of enduring these things for you. You havent acknowledged any of the abuse until now....and now you are actually asking for my forgiveness....
Gee? Just what do you expect me to say. You have hurt me in absolutely every way possible in the last 16 years. I do not know if I can, It may take YEARS of prayer for me and many years of counseling sessions to get through this.
What I DO know I can tell you:
I know that I'm stronger now than I have ever been. I KNOW that I dont need you anymore. I know that I cannot be dragged down by your hurtfull words and your lies. I AM ready to move on and get a real life. I AM ready to be the absolute best mother I can be. I know that I AM ready to face a new career path. I know I dont LOVE you any more.
I know that I AM ready to leave you.......
Re:I'm ready....... Ladybug: Good for you. Be strong!!
Re:I'm ready....... MRMR: You should be very VERY proud of the step you have taken.It really is for the best.
Take care
MRMR
